Focus, Focus

Not that anybody's been reading lately but if you do, sorry I haven 't posted. I've been terribly busy. Aside from in typical stuff I deal with daily, I've been taking on the extra chore of being focused.
Focusing more on my spiritual life, focusing on my children, focusing on work. So I should rephrase the aforementioned because being focused is not a chore, it is an acquired skill to say the least. Especially when we speak of our spiritual life, this is the relationship that truely matters. Our spiritual growth is what completes our circle in life, connects what we have here on this earth to how we will live when we leave this earth.

Being focused on my children is not a chore either, once again, another lesson or set of lessons to be learned. Also ties in to the spiritual growth issue. God can take my little ones away from me in heartbeat, at the snap of my fingers. As much as I love those little guys they are only here temporarily, as if God is just lending them to me. They are only little once and I must cherish every moment of their youth. Yes, it tends to be taxing to have my little ducklings all follow me every where, at every moment but I think I'm starting to rejoice in their differences as well as their good qualities. Trey's autism has taught me patience and nuturing. Spencer's anger has taught me how to love till it hurts....that saying kill 'em with kindness, that is the essence of our relationship. Spencer has taught me how to laugh and smell the roses. Mila is a total doll, she's funny like Spencer, sweet & innocent like Trey and a determined, strong willed little lady. Seeing her makes me realize that we all have a fighter within. That girl is 25 lbs of pure energy and strength-nothing and nobody stands in her way. And just like a southern girl...always with a sweet smile that melts your heart.

Last but not least, focusing on work. Gotta eat...gotta work. I may not have the dream job, but the Lord has opened this door for me for some reason. Whether I am hired as a permanent fixture there or I move on, I will always appreciate filling the fridge up with cokes and making copies, etc. As "director of first impressions" I know that my little contribution makes up for the whole. Excellence is always expected at this place, but it always feels good to be part of the excellent product that is a result of those high expectations. I know already in the few short months there that I have been motivated to do more, fill my cup more, shall we say, and not settle for a 1/2 filled cup. This motivation has opened my eyes to accept & reject things in my life I might otherwise would have not.

All in all, it is the perfect plan of God that has me in the position that I am in right now. He has placed the tools there for me....job, home, friends, family, children, car....to have a content life here on earth. Its up to me to cherish and take care of the gifts I ahve been granted. Its up to me to live an excellent life to express my utmost gratitude for having yet another sunrise, another debt, another breath, another trial.

ok, i got a little side tracked, but I will write more later.