Try Try Again...

So that seems to be a recurrent theme in my life....many ways and many times, God has been telling me try harder and try again. Finally, he bluntly put the message forth to me in exactly those words. Just when we think we are doing all that we can or that we are putting forth the best effort, I am reminded...no I'm not!

Trey went to the hospital again for dehydration. I've lost count how many times Trey and I have sat in the emergency room of Cypress-Fairbanks hospital for this issue, just to be patched up and sent back home. This time, the poor baby had a cathater....ouch.... I see this as God's message...try harder to be a better, more persistent mom. Thank goodness for this message. I rolled into the dr's office 1/2 asleep, just getting about 3 hours of sleep. I couldn't even tell you what I told the Dr. that day other than I was at the hospital w/Trey last night. I walked out with more hope this visit. He made a referral for another Neurology visit, a possible psychiatric visit and a session w/a dietician. Finally, somebody is going to listen to me about Trey.

I got hit over the head with trying harder as an individual with my life...my sis had a harsh talk with me about how sloppy my entire life is. Thank goodness...I've got a job with State Farm now. I really need to preserve it considering there are 1/4 million people living in the Astrodome who could take a test just like I did and take my job.

I really need to evaluate where I'm at. As a Christian, I've been told that I'm not doing enough. This is one area, that I know i am working on and I don't know what people expect because I'm just a baby in this area. You have to scoot before you crawl, crawl before you walk, walk before you run. i'm barely sitting up enough to scoot. I may not be able to be quote scripture or explicate books in the bible, but I know that my heart is in it and that I know where I want to go. It was once posted that I should just let myself be guided by teh Lord, and I will never be left floundering. Those words have resonated in my mind. I don't feel bad that I can't go out into the community and witness to others, but what better witness than my life, my own trials.

I've been told that if I would just listen to others that my life would be so much simpler...but I can say, I'm in shoes that not many people walk. People always say they "know" or they "understand" but they really don't. Who do you trust, who do you listen to? Ok, yeah, the obvious...listen to God...but when do you know that God is speaking to you?