How Do You Do It?

People often ask me "how do you do it?" with the kids, being single, juggle a full-time career, part-time business and somewhat of a social life, and manage to not have any grey hair...My answer used to be "I just do". Since this summer when I was introduced to the Word and really began exploring the bible my answer has changed to FAITH.

I have tons of wisdom in areas other than Christ & religion & politics. Ironic that i have a very limited knowledge of politics considering I am considered a "government employee". I have been having some issues with my Faith lately and as I said, it has been nice to hear refreshing & unbiased opinions. I say that because my friend who introduced me the Word said that it is better at this point not want to get involved with me on a spiritual level. That spoke volumes of his character and my position in his life needless to say. Why did he introduce me to the Word? Perhaps his civic duty? I've tried to analyze but I realize it doesn't matter, at this point to me that's the most beautiful gift anybody has ever given me. Although things obviously are not going to progress into anything more, I am thankful to have a wonderful person such as him in my life. Unknowingly he has changed my life and taught me more in 10 months about myself and my life than I have ever learned even through a 4 yr marriage, college and the birth of 3 children.

The whole relationship/spiritual teacher thing has been eating away at me and it helps to vent to a fresh pair of ears (or should I say eyes) to hear (read) this. Since January after much research, I started going to a Bible church and feel a little out of place there. Everybody is married and have on the average 3 - 4 kids. If they don't have kids they are newly weds or they are really old. Really nice church but I'm just the sore thumb. I don't know who to go to with my questions and having grown up all my life in a Catholic Church this is somewhat of a culture shock. Not a bad thing, just a matter of getting re programed - a good thing nonetheless. My mom thinks that I go to a cult church or something because it is not Catholic. I have 2 much older sisters. My oldest goes to church to see & be seen. She is the classic "Sunday Catholic" if ever there was one. So involved with everything that she isn't involved with what is important, her family. My other sister is a church hopper, strong in Faith and very intelligent but sometimes those intelligent types are a struggle to converse with.

What I need to do is truely live faithfully. Put the faith that I have in my head and put it in my heart and let it guide me or shall I say, let Him guide me. Easier said than done.

Accepting Christ was so easy. Yes, I want to go to heaven. Yes, I want to be Saved and forgiven. When I was first studying there was such a clarity and a peace in my heart about everything. Now what? Why am I so clouded and confused? Do all Christians feel this way??

That's all I have to say about that....