It seems you have a pink ink in your think

(This one started as dedication to Tom)
Today, here I sit, 27, divorced, didn't finish college, 3 toddlers. I had a "family" and I put that in quotes because although I was married I might as well have been a single mom. It was all on me. I longed to have part of what I have now...Spiritual Growth...for myself & my children. I am still learning but I am far from where I was when I was married. Somebody commented to me recently that they wished they had what my ex-husband & I had. Yes, we are good friends but that is it. Just as the people in line @ Star Wars.

I can't stress enough to you that it is important be strong in Christ for yourself & your family. I walked into my marriage with no idea of the real world. What I thought was the real world at 22 in little Lafayette, LA pales in comparison to what I face today at 27 in Houston. Perhaps it is the fact that I have grown closer to God, perhaps its the kids, perhaps the fact that my child is autistic, probably a combination of all of it...at any rate, the only way I get through my trials is the power of prayer. I don't do it all by myself and didn't get here all by myself.

Today I was watching a video with the kids, there was a line that caught my attention...

"it seems you have a pink ink in your think"

The song went on to say basically that we have all our hands, toes, etc in tact, if we get our head in the right place then we'll be all right. That's what's been going on with me, my head has been in the wrong place. I needed to focus on what is important. I am young and healthy, my children are beautiful and talented, I am a Christian, I have a wonderful family. What do I have to complain about? Yeah, I'm not happy about where I live. My job is...well, ok...but at least I have one. But I have been blessed once again with another sunrise. Sure, I struggle terribly with the Robert situation. But that is one that God is working in both of our lives. Besides my ex-husband, he is probably the only person I've had any kind of relationship with. He doesn't come in riding on a white horse ready to sweep me away to a beautiful castle. He doesn't shower me with gifts, roses, money or compliments. He doesn't promise me the moon and the stars, but I am thankful for him. He is so honest and patient with my situation and with my hang-ups. Yes, at times we stray from what we both know is appropriate behavior. Yes, I am so desperately wanting to rebuild my life and have a family once again. As the saying goes, God gives us what we need and not what we want. I want to be married, but I am thankful that I am not. I have been given the opportunity to mature spiritually and socially. I used to settle for what came my way. Now I know I have a voice and I will be heard. Now I'm trying to learn to shut up.

I am so thankful for what I have today because I struggled in the past. There was a time shortly before I found out that I was expecting my first child that I was told I would not have children at all. Here I sit, with 3 beautiful babies. what an honor it is to hear the word MAMA. (yeah, it's a little annoying at times too, but I love 'em).

Aah, the power of animated films and Psalms!