Turismo

Como cada mujer es un mundo aparte, a mi me encanta hacer turismo...

Translation....Since every woman is like a different world, I enjoy tourism...sorry, bad translation, but I think you get the gist.

Is this true. From the woman's eyes looking into a man's world, if this is true then I'm doomed to being single forever. Perhaps not doomed if that is in fact the mentality, but certainly not content if that is what is left out there.

Judging from this blog you would think I'm boy crazy and with little depth or dimension. Lately, I guess you can say I went through an emotional earthquake; the world that was under my feet has been shifted, the mountains and boulders that surround me have shattered and the heavens are cloudy and I can't seem to focus on the future.

Yeah, it takes me a while to shake things like this off.

I guess that its a little different this time...we somewhat had that spiritual thing going. Our second or third "official" date he gave me a bible. Not in a pushy way, more because I was so inquisitive. He has been wonderful in letting me explore and make my own decisions about spirituality, church and the such, but he was also my "teacher" for a while. We would study the Word together occassionally, which was more than any flowers or gifts I have ever received. Flowers wilt and gifts can be broken, but the gift of the Word is something that I can never exchange and I am forever grateful for this. What hurts most is how I am left now...he won't continue studying with me because he said that he isn't ready for that in our relationship. However, he is quite disrepectful towards me. Not anything noteworthy, just going against what he says he believes and certainly what I believe. This is where the cloudiness comes in...I can't distinguish between that line of what is acceptable and what is not.

Luckily, we never did the "family thing", my kids met him a few times, I never met his.

I have to keep telling myself that everything happens for a reason. OUr meeting was certainly not by chance. The reason we met is very clear in my life. My purpose to him...don't know yet. What I see as my purpose to him, not good...perhaps there's more to it. At any rate, Pray that I can accept the Lord's will. I don't understand why the Lord would want me to linger and pine over something that does not appear healthy. Perhaps in time this will all be revealved to me.